jojo ♥

Sunday, March 21

I feel very grown up!

The idea of puttering around life, making decisions and planning my route seems so very old. I almost expected to start discussing lifelong insurance plans, investments like apartments and cars and talk about greying hair and aching joints!

It’s not so much the growing up or the security I would have gotten from going to school and just being there. Physically. It’s just that, after graduation with little or no fireworks, things stayed stagnant. It’s a little off-putting.

Perhaps I thought too highly of graduation. The elation from having no deadlines or assignments, the excitement of being free everyday to occupy myself as I like – it wasn’t as exciting as I had thought. Instead, I felt unproductive. I think I practically became too desperate for something to do; something not eating, shopping or entertainment.

I think I thought graduation would be very very exciting – much more than school with its restrictions. And it’s not.

So maybe, I am jumping into a potential career that come by my way too quickly. It is definitely not what I had expected, nor what I had hoped to do first and foremost.

I’m starting tomorrow! To be honest, I am very happy to go back into the Land of Stability Living. With the job to anchor me, I’ll probably be more productive and happier. (:

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