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Monday, December 18

why do everyone sound terribly matured?

jeremy's talking about finance..future..life.

zul's talking about deep-within-the-soul problems.

everyone's busy working. saving. doing, well, grown-up stuff.

me?

im hanging around. slaving as a secretary. thinking about playing. shopping and all that. hahas. what a difference.

but honestly. im tired of making stupid conversations. what's with the dumb lines and depressing words? 'oh i dont know what to do but i feel like dying this instant'. oh please. just how old is that cliche?

whatever.

die if you want. at least, i wont have to listen to crappy stuff anymore.

i actually talk a lot to jeremy. you know, just ramble on and on. didnt expected it but still.. it's nice to catch up. and they (the guys) are sincere. unless some i know.

work tml will be scary. silly liqiang misplaces his stuff all the time. and as much as i cant believe it, im facing christmas cards writing before the year's up. worse, i've got christmas calling to do too. talking about torture. then i gotta do filing. more filing! eee.

im going shopping with jingwen this 23rd! hope we actually meet up. hahas. i wanna go marina and bugis.. can i, can i?

then 24th.. hahas. more shopping. (= hee. im buying new shoes! yays. these are killing me. so, i've got a perfectly good reason. hahas.

perfect christmas huh?

oh well. sayonara. i need my beauty sleep too..nights.

16:46

Sunday, December 17

3 months after liang's bday.

piano today was slack. but stressful. as in, there is so much for me to learn. and practice. you know? i feel inclined to stay studying the history of music. okay then, maybe just reading.

i met up with the guys for dinner today. what can i say? they were oh-so-late. at least, two of them were. i waited 2 hours! i was starving when they made their appearances.

we went to pastamania. i doubt im going there again. the food was, at best, acceptable. pizza hut's better. (=

perhaps it's just like the times we used to eat out after school but i really felt happy. despite my boring job. and the guys' being late. and my empty wallet..

because the nice guys were late, lianghao and i had to wait. hmpf. had i waited with shing, i think i'd expect complaints. with eehong, cold jokes. huijing, impromtu shopping or simply chatting. ut i didnt know what to expect with lianghao.

well, i should have know. we stayed at times. poring over books.

times simply screamed money to me. there's so many books i'd like to own! haha. the nora roberts' collection alone is tempting. i saw this interesting book titled 'the five jerks you meet in heaven. ring a bell? (=

i've got a concert to attend this wed! roy's. im so proud of him. dont ask me why. hahas. it sounds silly, i know. in fact, i even felt like bringing along this huge donald duck lolly and wave it like a loony.

tml, im playing good granddaughter and dropping by gram's. totally boring, yes, but necessary. 'll just bring something to do..yawn.

23rd. i'll be going shopping with jingwen. (= yays! the joys of buying new stuff. the pain of parting with my meager money. ha. im like so gonna pamper myself with new clothes. the job's killing my life. i simply hate working in front of a computer doing boring tedious work for hours. plus filing for liqiang? im a goner.

huijing's going overseas four times. hongkong, johoer, genting, USA. lucky huh? must be fun. hmpf. i'll make sure i get to go too - independently! hahas.

alright. im exhausted now. a long day tml. make that a long long week. ugh!! *pure disgust*

15:25

Sunday, December 10

huijing just told me that clarence only treated me as a sis. which means he wasnt even serious.

worse, this may very well be just another lie.

i dont get it. if he's truthful now, why not tell me the other time? this had to be better than to think that he cheated right? we could have still stayed friends. if he's lying now, that's worse. why he is still making excuses up til now?

the more i think about it, the madder i get. the nerve he has! damn him.

i really hate it that he still gets to him and hurt me. it has been god knows how long.

either way, it's bad and i hate him for it.

maybe because i consider him the one and only. so far. but. i wont anymore. maybe it's time that i stop being so nice. way pass time. even though i was hurt and disliked him ever since that day, i'd still stupidly want to see him and such. stupid huh? well, that's stopping. i deserve more dont i?

well, brother, i dont really give a damn if you have this add or not. maybe it's good if you do. i just dont care. all the lies. the trust i had? stupid. i didnt even heed weiming's and soh's warnings. jem's, khaiyew's whoever, who's all smarter than me in this sense i guess.

22:34

Saturday, December 9

i've got a job~ i've go a job~!

hahas. big deal okay? guocai pulled through and presto! (= so im spending my days filing and typing reports. yeah, sounds boring i know. and i thought i saw the last of filing after Os!

anyway, huijing's back from hongkong! yays. havent seen her for so long.. and of course i want all my prom pics. (= we're going out! but im kinda broke.

see, that day i woke up -yesterday in fact- half an hour late so i had to take a cab to work. so i had to fork out 17++! it's so damn far! ugh.

but the good thing? i went to lunch with four PAs! there. im sociable.(=

too sociable.. i spilled to guocai that i wanted to work more! *crings* hahas. in fact, i just keep talking and talking and talking and saying everything! gosh. i think i even criticized him for slacking!! how rude.. hahas. he must think im really really weird or really really brave. ha.

oh oh, and my lessons is sat morn at 9am! *yawns* early. and im doing perfectly for theory. almost full marks. ha. granted, it's only the lower grades but..(=

just so happy now..and cant wait to see roy's concert.(= how ironic..i was going to see another concert by another roy. wonder if it's still on. hmm.

happy now..hahas. stupid huh. whatever. adios.

20:21