i know it's the forth entry but i really must write this: huijing said my new purple hairband's ugly. i already told her that i love it. damn her.

even if you dont like it, you could just tell me it's not your style. i still do love it okay. how hurting is it to hear you say it's ugly?

that tone you used hurt too.

13:53

bless shiffa too. she beckoned me and smiled.

am i really that expressive? i didnt say a single word and yet the whole wrld knows im upset. oh well. media comm. i can also be a actress now huh.

oh yeah, bless alan too.

13:51

a most awful day. yeah. they're all going fo lan and huijing has training. lianghao's meeting his primary school friends. great. absolutely. ugh.

bless jingwen. she's totally nice. we're on the same bus and she came over to ask after me. walking along the aisle of seats too. i really really love her on times like these. didnt i put 'buying stuff to thank ppl' in my so-called fantasy? im gonna treat her or buy her something soon.

13:46

i feel jingwen and i are really really good friends. when i pinpoint what i felt was different about her, shegave me a reply tha was totally look-worthy. i read the message and made this look that made me think of jun!

okay. enough.

jingwen's giving me the evil eye.

13:55

he was late for an hour yesterday. i was naturally angry. nope, no phone calls yester-night. though i did answer him if he talked to me. what can i say? im polite. then today..okay. maybe i overreacted. he came after his dnt, then we all left right after. i was immediately tired after he came so it's home! yawn.

khaiyew is nice today. and lianghao's way adorable. wonder what he'll say if he knew the adjective i used. anyway, they planned to wait for me, then in the end look for rohana with me. who disappeared. great. i went near tears. no, not crying!. it's tearing. i must stress that's miles of difference. anyway, he offered me tissue and mostly, did not laugh AT me. thanks, gay. (= he's like the mediator among us. haha. im really glad it's more or lss, 'us' alrdy. as in, in a group. he's really nice. and jeremy? i dont know. hopefully, we can stay a group.

09:59

he called. so everything's fine.. haha! okay, im grinning. but he played the guitar for me. okay, just bits and pieces but im happy! haha. okay, weird.

but he keeps mentioning tsuisan.

hmmm.

then when he played maple. granted, a but boring huh but o..k..a..y.. when i got sleepy, he askd me to go to bed. he sounded so gentle! haha. i dont knowto cry for him or feel happy.

i know i sound like im swooning but haha. cant help it.

i think i might probably like him the way i liked clar -if there's the chance- except that he's nicer. (=

13:39

okay. so it was not entirely jun's fault tht i cried. yeah, he made me. but it was also partly because i already know i did badly for exams, because the piano is no longer on sale and because i played supr badly and got the theory and the technique all wrong.

i guess i just wanted to prove that im not a crybaby.

it makes no difference though. im still really mad at jun.

13:36

i hate junming. why must he made every darn thing so difficult? he made me cry now. it's rolling down my cheeks, and damn it! just not stopping. damn him! i really really hate him. how am i gonna be able to sleep like that?

13:34

how does she laugh, how does she cry?
what's the colour of her eyes?
does she even know that i am here?

who is she, who is she?
who is this beatiful girl?
where is she, where is she?
who's gonna complete my world?

how does he laugh, how does he cry?
what's the colour of his eyes?
does he even know that i am here?

who is he, who is he?
who is this beatiful guy?
where is he, where is he?
who's gonna take me so high?

13:28

junming got angry today and i simply dont care. it's not my fault.

first, lianghao's phone got no cash in it anymore. so i sms junming to ask where they are. he called and asked us where we are. then he got angry cause he told us to call and yet i sms. i didnt know he specifically said not to sms.

i argued with him, like we usually do. you know, like banter. then he hung up just like that. oh, the nerve! naturally i got angry too. then he called again and keep asking where we are, every few steps, so much so that it's like reporting. i wasnt so angry then. it was just a slight misunderstanding.

when we met them, i remarked to lianghao, dont ask me to call again. it was just a casual comment! jesus. then when the whole lot of us started moving, lianghao told me to ignore them. i thought he meant that they were playing but later i realized that jeremy and khaiyew were actually trying to calm junming down. then i got really really angry. like. what are you angry for? so i smsed instead of calling. is that a crime? i didnt know you specifically asked us to call! crap!

then when we were deciding where to eat, he sat down right on the flor, following jeremy. i so so hate people who sit on the floor, esp right in the middle of the mall. it's just so dumb dont you think? i got so mad that i refuse to eat, going only for milkshake. and didnt talked to him for the rest of the day. yeah, we laugh when any of us suan khaiyew but all in all, i didnt talk to him. i think he was trying to make eye contact with me but i might be wrong.

13:08

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