I swear I wouldn't start this post
like a kid would when he's denied something,
but I can't help it:

I'm a frigging 18 year old,
in the 21st century,
in a damn safe country called Singapore.
I reach home always before midnight,
when I do go out.
Like goddamn Cinderella.

And you're still pissed?

Ah wells.

You know.
Parents have damn good memories.
She brought up every single thing I did wrong this year
when she ranted at me.
Esp that time when we fought over me hanging out my pals.
...
A good long while later,
she handed me the ultimate:
Quit, or not talk to her.

Hmms.

I know what the politically correct answer will be.
And all those who think I should be filial, I know your answers.
But like HuiJing asked,
that would mean:
No working at Jazz.
No contacting anyone at Jazz.
No going out late.
Do go home right after school, or close there.
Do have a better life at home.

That's pretty sad.
I've got 2 for going to work already.
Even SC.
HAHA.

Okay, make that 3.
I know what Lianghao will say.
AWW. Hugs people!
You make me feel like a good-girl-ready-to-become-rebellious.
With a cause. :DD
And HuiJing,
I love you!
This girl told me to pack up and move to her place. O.o
But yeah, I'm still home. -_-

And people who think my friends and I are extreme..well.
Too bad.
We... live in. Special circumstances.
Yeah.

:DD

P.S. Don't be too quick to judge.

Ahhh.
And if I do stay on.
I don't intend to tell anyone at Jazz.
And. I just want to make it clear.
Whatever decision I make?
It's for myself.
(:

~
Michael,
ahhh!
I don't want to quit.
):
I want to rush around serving irritating people
and pushing lycheegrapefruits!
:D
reply luhs!
Nicole, thanks!
(:
Nuriman, thanks for your ahems encouraging words.
Politically correct and not.
You are awesome!
:D

22:52

OHMY.
I just read all - well, most - of my friends' blogs..
and woah.

It's scary.
I don't know who it is directed at,
but still.
Being catty is so not becoming.

Anyway,
silly old me became worried.
Not that I'm guilty, so not!
But because there seem to be a distance now...
which get disturbing as I read the blog posts.

Shudders*

But thanks HuiJing, Yanny and Nuriman
for listening to my baseless worries.
((:

~

Nathaniel Iman (the angel of white and gold) says:
and so the only advice i have for you know is that
to ignore what they may think or say
Nathaniel Iman (the angel of white and gold) says:
it is those that are close to you
that you cn depend on whose opinions shld matter more

True, I know.
Thanks guy! ((:

13:24

Better in Time playing in the background*

Okays people.
Turn to page 126 of your trusty Cleo.

30 things to do before you turn 30
from Cleo* (Thanks!)

DONE
Going to Do
As soon as I can
Never!

1. Throw a drink in a man's face! HAHAHA!
2. Delete 'random' and 'totally' from your vocab.
3. Divorce toxic friend. Toxic = alcohol? Then I'm probably have to kill myself.
4. Change a car tire successfully.
5. Break someone's heart; have yours broken.
6. Own a killer joke!
7. Use an alias for a day.
8. Dine unaccompanied.
9. Splurge on shoes! Uh-uh, someone's paying. :DD
10. Break up with a bad boy AND have a fling with one!
11. Travel overseas yourself!
12. Try something you said you never would!
13. Find out which friends you can trust.
14. Do volunteery work.
15. Quit a job without another lined up.
16. Live by yourself for at least 6 months. When I'm 50. Hmms.
17. Run a marathon.
18. Pay off your credit loans. Said someone's paying.
19. Visit a strip club!
20. Learn how to stand up to bad service.
21. Learn how to choose a perfect wine.
22. Have a favourite non-chick-lit book.
23. Forgive somone; apologize to someone you betrayed.
I've never betrayed anyone! I think...
24. Cook an impressive 3-course meal.
Canned soup, some pasta and a bought cake. Can?
25. Confess that crush to a friend!
26. Buy a set of screwdrivers..and a lace bra.
No to the former. Hmms. HAHA.
27. Go to an art gallery and buy a original piece.
28. Have a one-night stand. Unless I'm virgin about to die..hmms. HAHA.
29. Drink champagne cocktails in Paris's posh bars.
30. Drive a cool car, even if you have to rent it.

My own:
31. Get a library in my house!

((:

Okays, study.

15:14

My shopping list:
Mango jacket - 125
Mango dress - 75
Mango shorts - 69
Miss Selfridge shorts - 89
Topshop bracelet - 17?
Fox jacket - 39
Fox cardigan - 36
Giordano scarf - 24
and...that's 474 dollars.

Sighs.

HAHA.

I love ya HuiJing!
OMG,
I'm so um declarative.
HAHAHA.

YAYS!
She's coming over.
MUACKS!

~

Michael.
Thanks. ((:
Right...so much for being shy.
What was that you said again?
HAHA.

Let's go back to Eski Bar again..
and sit in the cold!
:DD

~

((:

HuiJing and I decided.
All guys are GOONS.
Big big goons.

The only non-goons are:
Lianghao
and SC.
:DD

13:22

Why are guys such goons?
Sighs*
Daddy bluffed me again.
He brought me to Cartel,
claiming he's hungry...
then he left me there!

To smoke!
-_-

Thanks Daddy.

And he's back in a jiffy.
It makes me wonder,
does he smoke because he's enjoying it;
or has it become a habit,
something his body needs?

Hmms.
I don't like it one bit. ):

Sighs really dramatically.
Looks like my mission of keeping him in an air-conditioned room FAILED.
Miserably.

Ah wells.

~

Michael smoked yesterday.
12 hours after the promise! -_-
GRRR.
I saw okays!
Lousy.
You could've pretended better.
HAHA.
It's really funny when you think about it now.
He waited I think! until I went off to the toilet to sneak a puff.

But at least he told me. (:

Ah!
Food's here!
((:
Later~

PS. I bought dresses! :DD

16:48

It's a dready dready rainy afternoon,
and I'm sooo lazy.

Oops,
did I ever said I like rainy afternoons?
Well, I still do. Lots.
Except, not today.
Or these days.
Not when I have articles to churn out,
and exams to study for.
):

It should be a nice rainy day,
when I'm all free to read!
A nice cuppa mocha and a cake.
((:

I know I'm dreaming. ):

~

Anyway,
Mel and I were talking about..gasps horoscopes today!
And this is our conclusion.
Well, her conclusion.

Virgos and Capricorns are the best pair.
xX ll Forbidden Love ll Xx =)) says:
Virgo Woman & Capricorn Man
This is tied with Taurus
as the number one soulmate love match for you.
The relationship between a Virgo girl and a Capricorn boy
is stirring, passionate and sweet.
*ahems* In what way? Haha!
You are so in tune with each other it’s amazing.
You bring out the best in each other’s personalities.
He will take pride in you and
you will both support each other’s accomplishments and dreams.
You also share a strong need for approval,
and in this match both of your needs will be fully satisfied.
He will let you know how much he cares for you,
and he will take your relationship seriously
and make you feel very secure.
Hmms..hugs Mel!
A true soulmate match.

While we totally cannot get along with Aquarius.
.xX ll Forbidden Love ll Xx =)) says:
OMG AQUARIES? HAHAS>
we're enimes you knoww??
Yeah,
my bestie loses her sense of um,
spelling when she's excited.
Which is... pretty often.
HAHA.

With Scorpio, Virgos become... interesting.
.xX ll Forbidden Love ll Xx =)) says:
VIRGO & SCORPIO: -
This is an interesting match.
If the scorpion can tempt you
into sexual encounters that are exotic,
the end result will end in fireworks.
O.o Reallyyy!

The combination sometimes belongs
to the mutual admiration society.
If Virgo will keep from hurting Scorpio's pride what!,
this combination will be happy and enduring.
Scorpio is also possessive and fiercely loyal,
which makes Virgo feel loved and protected.
They also admire each other's minds.
Virgo is logical, intellectual and analytical. (:
Scorpio is imaginative, visionary and percetive. ):
HAHA! :DD
There is great intellectual compatibility between the two.
Virgo female will like the fact that
her Scorpio man has some understanding of her need for self-perfection.
She will also appreciate his faithfulness.
In turn, Scorpio male will find full devotion from Virgo female.
The only warning for Scorpio man is
not to get over-confident...

And my dear girl refuses to go on.
Oh well, enough for me to feel happy.
Virgos are intellectual, devoted,
and in all ways, NICE!
Duh.
:DD

But of course, she's adamant about this one theory:
.xX ll Forbidden Love ll Xx =)) says:
Virgo love compatibility chart state that
Virgo and Capricorn are very compatible partners.
SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

And this hateful one.
.xX ll Forbidden Love ll Xx =)) says:
SOMEONE*
SWEEP HER OFF HER FEET
so she won die a virgin
HAHAHHAHHAS
opss

Wonder why I even love her.

Just for the record,
I'm not a faithful believer of the horoscope.
I'm a.... fair-weather friend of it -
only a believer when it's good! :DD
I'm an optimistic person.
HAHA.

16:50

Hah!

So it happens.
Well, I guess I knew it'd have.
But it still hurts.
):

Are we all only capable of such fake friendships?
How long more do you all change friends again?

Stupid.

You know,
whatever.
Seriously.

I will not degrade myself.
To you and your shallow-ness.

Jojo hereby promises herself;
they are of no concern to her.
Ever.

Instead,
I shall focus on people
who actually knows what true friends are.
HuiJing. Lianghao. SC. Yanny. Kennyboy. And all.
You guys are the best!

So there!

00:31

AH.

This make sense.
I'm blogging about someone so that someone would read.
HMPFS.

And there is even a requirement:
600 words.
O.o
What is this,
an history assignment?
GP!

Well,
do give me an A okays.
(:

'Cause I'll giving you an entry,
all to yourself.
In 600 words.

So here goes:
(Is that by chance a hundred already?)

Clarey,
is a silly old boy,
who fancies his toe a Happy Meal (TM) nugget.

He enjoys reading,
especially books like '101 tips to Dating' by a mysterious Mr.Yeo.
Which I can tell you, is terrible.
Honestly,
the only good piece of literature he reads is this:
http://www.starcouture.blogspot.com/

Fortunately,
he has great taste in music.
He likes Better in Time by Leona Lewis!
:DD

Okays,
seriously.
I'm beginning to feel I'm back on Friendster,
during the silly lower secondary days!
O.o

Clarey is just a guy.
Your every other soccer pianist.
Which I guess is pretty rare.
Hmms.

Ehs,
just be happy there is a post for you!

And don't bother counting.
This is ahems 600 words.
:DD

23:38

Michael is NOT trustworthy.
So there!
((:

~

I just came home from an entire day at Cartel.
And I saw Hongyu! O.o
He probably thought I was with Alvin.
Haha....no. :DD

Not when I beat him at Daytona.
Yeah, yeah, childish but still.
I won. ((:

~

My song:

23:47

Joe, Kaka and Michael. Janie, Jojo, Chanthy and Lange.

Minus Chanthy,

plus MamaRose. Joe's sugar mama! :D We LOVE camwhoring!Joe, Jo, Michael and Kaka.And all the champagne balloons that Kaka insisted on having.
We girls!The singles anyway,so Chanthy don't count. :DDShe was outside entertaining MamaRose anyway. O.o Jasmine and Jo. DaJie and Jojo.Psst!She's high! :DD
Us crazy people!Camwhoring after silly dancing in the chalet!
Andddd,
pictures during Singcam Tutorial! (12August):

Yanny! And Nic with her new hair in Yan's beret.

My darlings in my Singcam group!

Jojo, BossieWossie, Yanny and Nic.*Vivi hates camwhoring. O.o

Looks like Kenny and Yanny has lots in common.

:DD

The soon-to-be birthday peeps! (:

Vivi and Jojo.

(:
The retarded. :D
This is our Video Suite! :DDAnd that is our ever-nice tutor,Ms Ng! :DDShe's responsible for the many As I get this Sem. (:And that is Alvin at the door.-_-

Don't just look at this..

He bullys me more!Like for our credits roll picture...he covered my face! ):Idiot! ...Our resident paperboy! Okays, that's all.Here's moi.Saying bye.MUACKS!

15:16

I'm happy. (:

I finally asked him stuff I wanted to clear,
and poof!
They're gone! :D
Like ohmygawdfinally.
And we're friends!
Siblings,
if you count the old secondary school thingy.
Hugs kiddo! ((:

Turns out...
they are tons of silly people
who a) got involved in active story-telling,
and b) came in at the wrong time.

But whatever.
We could never have been more anyway.
And... it's nice to know who are true friends,
and who are not.
Glares*
HAHA.

I'm believing this time.
Seriously.
So, don't feel guilty.

I'm over it,
and you should too. (:

Just...
remember our baka.
((:

And the bookmark.
And presents.
And the date!
Ohmy.

I'm still so picky.

:D

It's okay now, it's okay now, it's okay now...

03:24

I finished my first pint today!
It's Hoegaarden;
At Botak Jones.
Yes, the person obviously can't spell. (:

And no wonder.
After drinking,
I felt so happy
as happy as I haven't felt in a long time.
So much so that
I didn't want to walk straight,
didn't want to talk normally,
didn't want to be.. proper.

Like, who cares!

At that time anyway.
My senses are not so dull now,
and though I'm feeling damn sleepy,
I know I must have been a sight.
Oh god.

But looking on the bright side,
at least I wasn't that terrible.
I didn't start singing my lungs out
- god forbid! - ,
laughing like crazy,
or worse, puke.

I'm normal! :D

~

Today was supposed to be The Study Day,
since we guys decided to be responsible peeps.
I lugged my laptop, cable and all
and made my way to Cartel.
And found out the guys are not coming.

Thanks goons. ):
Thanks SC,
for not even replying.

By choice.

HuiJing and I totally lost all mood to study.
So.
We relive our secondary school days -
we ate and talked,
shopped mindlessly
I want that Mango jacket!
And the damn pretty planner! ,
and watch movie plus went to the arcade.

Love Guru is a retardedly funny show!
I love the part where
the elephants hump-ed in the hockey ring!
And when Mr Guru treated Jessica Alba to dinner.
HAHA.

Watch for mindless humour.
Please do.
:D

We can discuss the merits and failings.
HAHA.

~

I think Jojo's pampered.
cause she really loves good food!
Ribs and pasta,
sushi and dessert,
buffets and more buffets...

The thing is,
I can't tell who I got influenced by.
Was it no-hawker HuiJing,
meat lover LIANGHAO(: ,
or buffet king SC?

Anyway,
I've got to kick that habit.
Working at Jazz have let me know that,
hey, hawker food is really good!
Like regular satay and sugarcane. (:

Now, what about that air-con?
HAHA.

Jojo's still curious.
Would you would you would you?

00:15

Seriously,
if I told you I'm falling right now,
would you catch me?
Would you care?

HuiJing's right.
I'm probably just afraid.

01:13

I WAS RIGHT!

HuiJing really replied that she loved me, Hugs*
and Lianghao said nasty stuff. BOO.
SC, being him, didn't reply. ):

See, I'm smart.

Oh, two more 'important' people;
that I um, missed.
HAHA.
Mike
My partner-in-crime for stealing food! (:
And, a huge fan of in-depth film discussions.
We often argue endlessly on the merits and failings of fill in the blank.
It's pretty interesting...not.
We don't do film, we do FOOD.
Like, discuss chicken legs! :D
Right satay-boy? (:
Alvin
Ahh, and you!
MuayThai-loving photographer.
DADDY!
((:
Thanks for...
making the bet with me!
I'll win.
Hurrumphs.
:D

Okays, Mommy HuiJing's asking me to go to bed.
I swear her mommy's, well, mommy-ness rubbed off on her.
Im gibbering.

Goodnights! :D

PS. I will put pictures up soon! (:

00:59

I don't know why I cannot sleep tonight.
Though I'm so very sleepy,
and I had drank a little...

I just can't.

Mom thinks I'm becoming an alcoholic. -_-
Well, it's true that I drink a lot more than I used to,
but I'm definitely not down that path!
Ever.

I don't guzzle booze every other hour. -_-

Oh well.
What did they say about parents again?
Hms.

I feel so very emotional today.
Nope, not emo.
It's a long way from being emo.
For one, I wasn't in black,
carrying pocket knifes
and wearing my hair over 80% of my face.

I was just...
missing the past,
remembering what I've got,
and loving them all for it.

That's called...
sentimental.

Yes.

For HuiJing
Despite everything,
you are the bestest bestest friend I can ever ask for...
and that's five years of friendship here.
I love how you get what I'm saying
or better yet,
predict with startlingly accuracy what I'm about to say / do.
And I love how we always go for different guys. :DD HAHA.
Well, except... but never mind. (:
You are the star in my life,
the chocolate in the cake and
the... lead in all dances. -_- HAHA.
Simply the best! (:
I love you sister, no matter what.
For being you...
and for always reminding me that,
hey, Jojo's a girl too. HAHA.

For Lianghao
Dare I say, we go way back?
From silly pottery classes to stupid arguments
(not between us..we are ever so peaceful people! :D),
it seems we only do retarded stuff ehs. FUN! (:
Thank you, for being such a great buddy.
For standing by me through said stupid arguments -
I realized I never told you how much that meant to me.(:
And of course, for making me laugh
a.k.a putting me at the butt of all jokes. -_-
Now, you shithead bro, don't tag anything nasty!

For SC
You!
Hateful weight-losing person!
I swear all his lost weight is piling on my puny frame.
Why are most of my memories of you related to food?
(In Dunman anyway.)
Sakae...Seoul Garden... all buffets too! -_- HAHA.
But the most important thing:
Thanks for making me feel happy again,
for cheering me up whenever I need comfort...
and thanks for the lengthy smses
that always makes me wonder if I should laugh or cry. (:

I think HuiJing is right...
we do have strong friendships.
And I love ya all for it. :D
I'm already anticipating the tags.
HuiJing: -something about about loving everyone-
Lianghao: -something really nasty-
SC: -never even tag-

Oh wells. Some things don't change.(:

I also like these people:
Nicole Shincole
For being there for me when I cried like some blabbering idiot,
and for being a fair friend.
You are awesome! :D
Thanks hun!
Yannybb
You are my bubbletea-upgrading-to-cocktails buddy! (:
And a great chat sista!
Right, Mrs W+ahems+Mitch Hewer?
Now, what did I say about being a one-man girl?
TSK! :D
Kennyboy aka Boss
For never being there to lug equipment,
for showing off his skinny frame and
for showing off his internship at 938LIVE!
BOOS! HAHA. Love ya too luh, bossie wossie.
Jazz - Everyone!
Just being there. HAHA. You are everything to me you know. :D
Janie, my DaJie. And Andrew... my shoulder now has a scar! ):
Family
Mommy, Dad, Yvon, Ahyi, Granny...
Love ya too.

Alright...
I'm done typing.
Goodnights people.

03:12

The last day of school! (:

Actually,
It’s no big deal.
After all, it’s not last day per say.
It’s just the end of tutorials and mindless lectures.

But I still have assignments and exams.
Tell me, what’s the difference?

I may even prefer tutorials.
O.o

I’m going to miss Mr Ramesh!
Him and his silly lame-ass jokes.

“ ‘Research Question:
Men are less religious than women.’
That is not true!
I go to the temple every Friday…
and pray to Jack Daniels and Johnny Walker.”

Seriously.
-_-

HAHA.
I love him!
(:

11:44

I'm so so SO hungry.
Though I just ate.
And this is after the supper at 3 plus.
O.o

I'm becoming an even bigger pig. ):

But...
I lost weight!
:DD
HAHA.

I'm so random.
But that should me make interesting right?
(:

~

In a few hours,
I gotta 'wake up';
though I haven't slept a wink. ):
Go to Grandad's.
Then...
straight to chalet.
(:

Except,
I have to leave at 1.
Hms.
When nothing has started yet!
Blah.

I am blabbering.
'Goodnights'.

07:55

I really really really love my little bro! (:
MUACKS!

17:57

00:09

I'm so frigging tired,
and I have absolutely no idea why!
Stress catching up with me?
Blah.

I spent the whole of today doing assignments.
-_-
What's new right? ):

Well, at least,
we finished filming our stuff today at Cleo's house.
And by god, is her house pretty!
Almost as pretty as she is.
(:

You see,
she's not your usual pretty girl you see on the street.
Cleo has that rare friendly personality to match!
She's just great.
And really nice!
Nudges somebody* :DD
Hmms.

~

Tomorrow is another freaking long day.
How I wish it doesn't arrive!
With editing, BMR and work.
Blah.

I'm afraid I just cannot muster that enthusiasm.
I mean,
how does one
when one is as sleepy and drained as I'm now?
HUH!

Blah.
I just want to go to bed.

Goodnights peeps.

PS.
I just want to say,
I still love you all!
No matter what,
no matter how long.
((:

23:36

fallingstars
do twinkle,

eyecandies
are chocolates,

and

joey.

joey just wants to be alone.
at home, buried in books and movies.

hms.
so random!

~

Our audio videos.
From Audio Production class.
I swear, though audio classes are killers,
the end products are rather cool.

14:42

I feel very detached from the whole goddamn world.

Hms.

It's not nice to be emoish, is it?
And I don't want to be emoish.

But then again, when am I ever?
I'm only ever pissed at the whole world.

Which I guess is equally bad.

Blah.
I want out.

11:28

It just occurred to me that this could be me in the future - working at some journalist / marketing job, running between appointments and assignments and spending all my free time in cafes.

Hms.

I feel mature,
yet silly at the same time.
:D

16:43

I'm not going to work today. Meaning. I'll be a lot poorer.

Instead, I'm at this crowded angular place they call a mall: Causeway Point, all the #?@!*% ahems smiles way at Woodlands.

Ah! The travelling alone was tedious. Luckily, I've got a book. A life-saver, as usual. (:

You see, I'm trying to be a great big sister. Big sister-cousin, whatever. Take that, Yvon! HAHA. Melody told me I need more true friends... so I figured what better way that to start at home. Right? :DD

I'm so sensible. (:

Anyway, Yvonne's having her play / musical today - a part of the SPLAT Concert. She's supposed to be a supporting character, in a story involving gang fights and... foul play I guess?

I know next to nothing about the play yet, because I refuse to spoil the story with the supposedly P&C script and songs she wanted to send me. No spoilers la! BOO.

Apparently, SPLAT is quite the national event, though nowhere as big as AYF. Still, Yvon is pretty excited to pass the auditions and be part of this.

Her only regret is that her singing caused her to lose the main actress role. O.o HAHA. Well, why did she changed songs last minute right!

Okays, sorry dear. :DD

My lament is that I have to travel all the way to Causeway Point. Why don't they hold the event somewhere grand - and most importantly, central - like Esplanade, or the main National Library in Bugis? Hmpfs.

Plus, I'm super early - 4 hours earlier. -_- I'm waiting for her to have her break so we can have an early dinner. Then I'm supposed to wait again! for an hour for the perfomance to start.

At 7pm!

...I've been here since 3.30pm!

Blah!
Here's to another 2 1/2 hours wait.
Cheers...

PS I want to watch The Mummy! But not exactly keen to watch it with my parents. Any valiant rescuers? (:

16:06