jojo ♥

Sunday, August 13

mom was oh-so-naggy this morn. and last night. i dont know how she can ramble on and on but yeah. ugh, so i told her, you're so kua zhang and everything. afterwards, she's better! but still, ugh.

yesterday, jem told me simply wonderful things about clar. interesting.

apparently, clar was kinda..insecure? my guess -mean as it is- is tha he needed a friend and that's why he called jem 'brother'. any-oh-way, he split from jem when jasmine reject him for the latter. oh, how smart. *smiles sweetly* bravo, jas!

that's when stupid me comes in. a little lies and stories, and i completely trust him. maybe it's cause i already liked him. so i was fooled and fooled. oh, great. argh.

first, he two-timed me. with some girl from TKGS. that's from aileen.

next, there's this funny call frm a stella in ngeeann. she asks me to leave him. and he told me not to care about it. i can still remember: "you can doubt me.. but it's not true."

third, he lied to me about jasmin. josh told jem, who told me, that they did stead for a week or two. but apparently jasmin was smarter and dumped him -i think- because she didnt like some of the stuff he did. well, serves him right. and he told me he's just consoling her cause she's upset from jereborne.

to sum it up, i've been downright stupid. dont you think? i've a mind to let come back -if he does- and lift his ego, really really high, then smear it on the ground. i cant stand him!! goddamn it, how can anymore be so darn mean? and how could i be so stupid.

i still rmb when weiming and soh tell me to forget about clar, that he's with her throughout the week. well, thanks. really. and jem, for telling me and to be angry for me when i told him that he two-timed me and abt the stella character. it's nice to know i've friends like him though it makes my blood boil! argh!!

and jasmin, though i dont really blame her. she definitely knows that i was with clar and he just broke up with me. doesnt take a genius to figure out, does it? so why get together with clar so quickly, worse, strut in front of me? being a girl, i'll ould expect her to be more tactful. but no. oh well. what can i do?

yours truly,
stupid

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Tuesday, August 8

what a day. the entire day was just.. diff. first, i had an awful day starting with the tired waking up and the stupid boring lessons. finally, i had to go for detention but i dealt with that by signing in and then doubling it by going to remedial while serving, if you get me. on the whole, the day jus pass as bearable.

huijing and i.. not excatly perfect today, i didnt like her attitude, not when i recieve a dose of it despite being very innocent. i tell her that and she didnt take it well. oh well. i have to get it out so we both know what's going on right? unlike her, keeping stuff from me. i cant do a thing abt it but frankly, it tinges. im her best friend arent i? oh whatever. tell me what you will, i wont probe.

surprisingly, the guys and i got along pretty well. lianghao and i were good today and i talked with jem. everything's norml with khaiyew; he even went to the bubble tea shop withme. thanks! i love that he can be so open and carefree despite everything. he rocks! and when he's fierce.. haha. scary! and the ncc ppl are so adorable. kawaii! jem laughed as khai scolded the younglings and lianghao walked around laughing and chatting amiably with his juniors. jun yelled and tugged oh-so-cutely at his cadet's beret. haha. funny. i do love the lot of them. please let me have them dear god. i'll be good. (=

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