jojo ♥

Tuesday, February 16

Oh god, I'm so repetitive. The same issues, the same worries, just a different day. Feeling nothing and emptiness, being jaded, not giving what a shit I do.

I try to control myself - as much as I abhor the whole social fakeness, I know it's important. But I still feel empty, I guess like, I don't know. Perhaps I just don't know where I am going, or what I'm doing. Okay, life isn't certain and that's the fun, but....

I don't know, perhaps I'm very silly. I want the fun of not knowing my life route, that's more adventurous. At the same time, I want the guarantee that things will turn out good for me - it doesn't have to be multi-millionaire with apartments all over the world, but good enough to live the life I want.

Also, I hate the whole let's smile and be happy now, we can bitch behind their backs world. We can smile and take pictures together, we don't have to like each other! It just irks me that people can be fake. And be so goddamn okay with it.

Perhaps I should learn to like the world's terms. Smile and bitch behind them like the best of them!

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