jojo ♥

Thursday, July 31

He is not coming to lecture.

Why?
Because I'm here?

How retarded.

I empathize with him when I thought the others were a tad to harsh on him. But if he still think I'm jumping at every opportunity to mark him down, well, I never did.

Whatever.
You are not worth my time. BOO.

No help is of use when you don't help yourself.

16:12

FOM tutorial again.
Blah.
This. Is. Boring.

Yays, I'm blogging yet again!
See, I told y'all I'd blog regularly once my blog is up! (:

~

I just heard some loveydovey songs and... well.

As someone who have not gotten attached for the longest time - longest being years, not months... or, God forbid, weeks and days as some of you wackos might think! -, I get darn cynical.

Are these love songs a reflection of the songwriters' feelings, or are they written to appeal to teenage-angst-filled and I-just-broke-up-with-my girlfriend/boyfriend delete where appropriate of-3-days categories of people? Or all they all playing on what they think music listeners wants to hear - sad emoish music that seems to reflect the listeners' mood?

If that is so, I have a tip for all composers. Use very very very vague words. You'll probably be in Top 40 hits for ages.

As I hear stories about people falling in love, falling out of love and going through the whole bittersweet experience again and again, I wonder if they really love their partner and exchange Iloveyous within days, or if they simply love being in love.

Like the lovesick Duke Orsino. Twelfth Night, Shakespeare? Right.

There are some acquaintances that I know who want to get together with people they barely know know. They have absolutely no clue on the background, favourites, quirks...whatever of that person they supposedly like!

Should that make sense?
Or should it be 'love at first sight', - all romantice and fluttery?

Maybe I'm sufferng from a serious case of sour grapes (actually, I doubt that. Just look at the average teenage couple on the streets!), but even you, my lovesick / loveaddicted again, delete where appropriate friend, has got to agree.

Being in a relationship is OVERRATED.

I know.

Sometimes, when I look at my blissful friends, I do get envious. And pissed. They stole my friends! Hmpfs. ):

But at the end of the day, while I'm happy for them the real relationships anyway!, I'm happy because I didn't give a hoot about society. Or the average teenage narrow perception that being in a relationship is all-important.

Worse, the annoying older generation who always ask 'When are you getting attached?' Read: Daddy dearest. -_- Hms. Whatever happened to protective fathers who glare at every guy with 10 metres of their daughters?

I'm happy because I didn't get together with someone who only knows my first name. Oh, my girlfriend is Joey. She likes.... hm, red? Maybe pink. Yeah. She really loves chocolates... wait, candy? Whatever. The most important thing is, I love her.

Right. Blah.

I have got higher expectations than that!

Except, like I'm forever reminded, they are just too darn high. Joey is gonna be an old spinster! ): Well, in defense, Aileen said: Singaporean guys are.... blah. HAHA. :DD I think they are not that bad. Thankfully.

To conclude this silly rambling post and general distaste in these people while laughing a whole lot at myself I shall quote. After all, isn't a quote the most memorable? But not Shakespeare though, or some great classic. It's a good line from Mary-Anne. Sorry, but I really love this line!

"No one is completely unlovable."

Byes! (:

14:10

Tuesday, July 29

A stressful stressful week!
I'm bombarded with stuff left right and centre,
and I'm losing. ):
Where's my white flag!

MONDAY
I'm at the damn big National Library,
searching in desperation for my ancient film tomes.
Alright.
Maybe not so ancient,
since information has to be 'current and updated'.
Blah.
I ended up with nothing! ):
But Swensens. :DD

TUESDAY
I have to apply for my LOA (Leave of Absence) for Thursday,
film the narrator's part for Yanny's script:

The Right Time to Make Love -
adapted from MadTV :D
Hm..I also have to get started on BMR,
Basic Media Research
the boringest subject ever on the face of this good Earth.
Hms.

Nuriman says,
It's not boring..
just the worse subject.

Well, honestly,
what's the difference?
It's just bad.
((:

Our research topic:
Animal abuse and how teenage something something..
whatever.
Lecture's over!
It's time for lunch.
And hell.):

Byes peeps! :DD

11:23

Sunday, July 27

I feel so... empty,
for lack of a better word.

It's hard to describe.
I mean, it's not like I have zero friends, zero deadlines, zero life.
Don't say anything if it's not nice.
I do have all these.
But I just feel empty anyway.
Hms.

I asked Mel about it.
And when I explained,
she understood perfectly!
Like, wow.
I didn't expect anyone to get what I thought was retarded. ((:

Plus, she could totally read off my mind.
FREAKY, or what!
Are besties supposed to read each other's mind?
Hms. Oh no!
I better pretend I can read her mind next time.

HAHA.
I'm joking.
Hugs*
Love ya babe! :D

~

Friday..
I got to work barely on time.
Luckily, Chanthy asked me to get Salsa sauce;
so I kind of got a reason to be slightly late.
Phew. (:

Strangely,
I found out that Chanthy was giving out free tortilla chips and Salsa -
which is weird...
since our bosses have been complaining that our overheads are high.
I know they are only for regular customers but still.
Every bit counts right?
Hms.

Oh, and we still have 2 new chefs to replace Ken.
Food for thought huh.

Anyway, we managed to hit our target as usual on Friday! :D
Despite the fact that Joe, Janie and I were huddling around talking about 'age' - as in years in the company.
See, we can multi-task! :D
But Chanthy didn't like that,
especially since Mr 126Rochester-manager-with-120drinks was sitting there observing Jazz with his uber black face. -_-

Terrible, I know.

Plus, these weeks, we still have to do cleaning
before we can go for our super-uber fattening supper!
BOO.
Jasmine, come back!
HA.

I miss her. HAHA.

Because Michael
inadvertently falls asleep everysingletime we get on the cab,
I always end up talking to Joe.
Or Andrew, if he's there.

This Friday,
it definitely felt weird.
Distinctively weird.

But, never mind.
You gotta grow up.
It's retarded to do that!

So. I ended up knowing lots about Joe.
And I got to say,
I really admire him.

I mean, he's practically a true blue Singaporean now.
But, every fortnight,
he travels like 6 hours back to Malaysia to visit his girlfriend.
Then he travels all the way back, in time for school.
For more than a year, and counting! O.o
Plus, he holds 2 jobs to support himself and pay for all that travelling.
And his GPA is a near perfect 3.98 or something.

Hateful people.
BOO!
Too bad he's a colleague,
I have to be nice.
(:

Ooh, talking about hateful colleagues.
Michael. You never bring me my book! ):
Please do!
HAHA.
Until then, I'm reading The Glass Castle.
It'll probably worry Mel to know that...
that is a sad sad book.
And I've been reading rather sad morbid stuff.
:D

And, Kaka!
Why you never tag!
I know you're reading! (:
Do add me on MSN, okay?
Even Min doesn't have your mail.
Looking forward to chalet!! :DD

Then, Saturday.
I'm obviously just rambling and typing stuff off the top of my head, aren't I?
All of us had to report to work an hour early for a meeting.

Over which Mommy became unhappy.
She thinks my pay is not worth the hours.
Which is, probably true.
But like Irene says,
I'm not likely to quit.
I mean, it's an experience for me!
Plus, the peeps are nice too!

Nevertheless,
she wants me to quit by the end of this year.
As in, school year.

I'm unhappy about that!
Even though the logical me knows I'll probably quit then.
I'll be starting my internship then.
If I work at Jazz, I'd have no life at all.

But I'd like to leave my options open you know.
BOO.

A n y w a y .
The meeting was sama-sama.
Push more drinks, better service, improvements and staff as a family.
Chanthy is right about herself - she is getting naggy. (:
Honestly, the only new thing I heard was about her treating us staff like family.
Which is cool. :DD
But the part about me being the bottom-of-the-rung staff,
OUCH.

Hms.
Am I that bad a staff?
I thought I was okay at handling customers.
I even got tips from generous customers!
Okay, that one customer but still.
It was $18. :DD
Whatever.

The main point was,
we had fun after work!
We had sweet green curry for supper. O.o
Then, we played drinking games! :D
After red wine, white wine, Heneiken, volka, liquer and goodness-know-what was in that 'punishment glass', I got a little high.
I mean, I could still walk straight,
but I start doing stupid stuff.
When we finally go home hours after closing,
I slumped into the back of the cab like some unglam person -
which I probably was.

Jeez.
I seriously haven't drank for a long time.

Which reminds me.
Mel is afraid I would turn emo,
Right... Joey is never emo. :DD
like SC and Lianghao.
SO.
We have 3 dates coming up.
ONE. Drinking.
TWO. Shopping.
THREE. Singing! ((:

YAYS!
Muacks!*
Phew, darn long post.

~
If you think you did the right thing, then smile.
Because there's nothing good in pretending.
In this case anyway.

21:26

Friday, July 25

YAYNESS!
I finished my Blood Diamond Film Paper,
beat the dreaded deadline,
and am currently lazing at home.

So, why do I feel so empty?

And no, it's not hunger pangs or food-related.
Im not that down the road. -_-

~

4 more hours til work.
I don't want to go!
It's so scary...
What will happen!

And I will have to see.
BOO.

How retarded.
):

Hms.

I miss... you guys.
Already!

15:52

Thursday, July 24

I feel... like a total bitch.

While I don't think HsihIng really did do much for the project, he still don't deserved to be tell-tales on. I mean, it's bad enough that his apprasial is at an all-time low... But he still had to stay back to get reprimanded! Plus, I bet he won't be getting grades any higher than C.

On top of that, there were still snide remarks made over his inability to present and his lack of formal attire.

Look, he is an Engineering student. He doesn't need to get business suits. Even Mr Ng told him to dress as best as he can, and not to waste cash buying one. If you guys did talk to HsihIng, you would have known. But of course you didn't. I mean, whatever for right.

And I don't blame his inability to speak during the presentation. He totally don't have any slides left! It was just a blank black page on the screen. Imagine having to conclude a presentation you have seen for the first time. And, having your supposed portion cut off. What would you do?

You know he's not very fluent in English too.

Anyway, that aside. He did do his work. He did the Controlling part, abide huge mistakes which is not forgiven. But, he did do his presentation slides. But you had to snort at it and blame him on the differences in the template used. Like, c'mon. How would he know which template we were using?

Of course when I bring up that point, I was 'covering up' for him. Hello!

BOO.

We all know that he wasn't exactly into the project, and didn't do much at all. For that, he definitely deserved his low appraisals. But to tell-tales and sneer at him, jeez.

No wonder the rest of the frigging school think of CMM so badly. What's the point in being creme la de creme if you can't be fair?

~

What a day.

Assignments, presentation and people.
It's so tiring sometimes,
yet, it's so boring without them.

It's kind of like
love 'em hate 'em.
What can I do?(:

My friends in CMM,
they are actually all very nice people.
Okay, nice is a vague word.
Great people.

But sometimes, I think,
we get so used to the demands that our lecturers put on us
that we start expecting the same from everyone.

That's not fair.

Oh crap, please tell me if I ever ever do that.

I have days when I don't like CMM.
The two-side faces,
the picking up and dropping of 'friends',
the pretense...
It's such hard work,
and so stupid.

But then again,
I think of the great people and I don't feel so bad.

I guess, every course had its black sheep in that sense.
Except that CMM has a whole lot more.

Ah. I'm rambling.
But I think there's definitely some rights in all that I ranted.

You think?

16:42

Monday, July 21

It's Monday 11.39 am and Joey is at home. ((:

This time, I skipped Film class because of frigging FOM. Fundamentals of frigging Management. Of which, in the whole semester, I learn Planning, Leading, Organising and Controlling. Something which, I already learnt in my first semester in a single lecture.

And this is supposed to be four-points modules for the some of the Business students? -_- Right.

Am I missing something here?

Whatever. So I finished the project at 4am and finally went to bed. No wonder I couldn't wake up huh. Though... actually I did wake up at 8. It's just that, I fell asleep again! (X

I wished I can be like Darren... he simply crawls out of bed, gets to class and falls asleep under his chair during the often boring film Ms Ng makes us watch. Think a really old half-black-and-white version of The Wizard of Oz. -_- It's only in colour when Dorothy is in the land of Oz because it reflects the magicial fantasy of the place blah blah. Some logic.

To be fair, we did watch some good shows like, Singing in the Rain and The Silence of the Lambs. Though the name of the latter doesn't make sense at all to me. But that's another thing altogether.

Oh, I'm rambling on and on today, aren't I? I guess that because I haven't let myself really blog for ages. Hms.

I will once I set up Blogger properly! My template is not even done yet! ):

Lots of things have happened recently, and I haven't had the time to blog about them.

Like, I met up with Vivian recently and god, did she give me the big sister attitude! She told me stuff about working and gave me advice on the kind of part-time jobs I should go for. In my interest, apparently, I should go for the telemarketing job at her company. Should that make sense? HAHA.

I missed her! And Gary and Roy and all. My eldest Aunt was saying how terrible they have become recently...and I find their antics damn cute! Even my gran laughed.

Oh oh! I also met up with Aly!! Like, finally. Though the rest didn't turn up. HMPFS. Well, couldn't is more right. But no matter, at least we get to say girl stuff. :D Now, if only HuiJing was with us...

Said girl stuff shall be kept private! (X Though I shall say, Aileen and I agree that Soh and Weiming have turn into babe-killers. ((: Nudges Aileen*

We met up with Adrianna - whom I haven't seen in a year! - and went to Kenny Rogers, courtesy of Amex-swiping Aly. I am envious. HMS.

Then they went to work with me! So I spend my first working hour talking to them about Lamborghinis -don't ask!(:- and, and... Well, Lamborghinis were the most interesting topic I remembered. (X When Aly discovered there was a $2.30 service charge, she said, 'Wow, I get charged for talking to you? Hms. Pats my shoulder* You. Not bad.' HAHA.

Oh hell, now I miss my secondary school mates. They are more...rowdy-in-the-nicest-possible-way. HMS. I will get to see them on Tuesday, I hope. Movie-and-chips at SC's place! ((:

OH!

And the latest thing to happen: I woke up and realized I dropped 1 1/2 kg. (((: But I'm not overly happy since my weight's been going up and down since... I started working at Jazz! Hms. Irregular meals.

But, I don't want to leave Jazz. I don't want to lose the people there. And Kaka is already gone! ): God, how easily I get attached to people and places. BOO.

Here's some pictures from last week. We went to Zouk after work...because it's Kaka's birthday! (: And it's kind of a farewell for Ken, who's leaving us to be Chef at Ritz Carlton. O.o

Jasmine and I.

She came to Jazz just to join us for Zouk okays!

Like, wow. :D

Janie and Michael.

The first of many forced pictures! (:

Jason and Chanthy.

Forced picture No. 2.

This is less scandalous though,

since they are together.

Kaka and I!

We are innocent. :D

Ken and Andrew.

Hms. Are they...?

HAHA.

PS. How can a chef be so thin!

Outrage!

Innocent as well!

Joey and Andrew.

On the dancefloor.

Michael, Kaka, Joey and Min.

The young people. (X

HAHA.

Everyone!

Some of the girls left though.

And Joi didn't even take any pictures. -_-

That's all folks. (: